Accidentally opened the old school language Cheng qq space, to see his sister language album Novo child’s photo, That bright smiling face under my mouse scroll, click pulled back memories of that summer.
Sixth on the college entrance examination scores of waiting, already numb from the anxious wait, along with this hot July, all handed over cigarettes, shrouded in mist mood bottomed. Repetition can imagine the pressure, but few people can not understand the "higher octave" in the end is what kind of mood. And a bunch of childish children sit, what it means. My parents taught at the university campus, a bunch of aunts and uncles grew up watching my eyes disdain and contempt, like one hot stamp covered with my whole body, nowhere to hide. Even the small road of hibiscus flowers are held high with pride, I will not understand and contempt speckled becoming stooped backs. Mom was also home to face wrinkled brow and Dad sighed glass. Doomed to frustration let me breathe, swimming in the sea of decadence, see marginal. Like Zhang Kangkang to say: there is no way of life, there is no way not to live.
Old school language have graduated from Zhejiang Academy of Fine Arts Cheng find me, please help him on behalf of the Arts exam training classes a month, he was delayed because of this study section. Last year’s gang arts student or candidate, I know almost all, thought I could make my brief escape from this suffocating environment, imagined they caught a few simple things with him went to the county one hundred kilometers away.
I was greeted Cheng’s sister language, called the language Connaught. As if she was the last to see students, compiled a pigtail, like a stooge, like sticking our every day, I often grabbed her pigtail count in the end how many series, like take her laugh, smile and see her crying in her to mother complain the moment, we took the opportunity to slip away. Today, the young girl obviously a lot higher, a pigtail also changed down low ponytail, I subconsciously reach out to touch her head, she looked down to escape, my hand froze in mid-air, the pair often with our eyes rogue also a little shy. But has not previously been noted that there is a young girl’s complexion pale sun long gone, lips also showed a rare bruising. Order of spoken language suddenly remembered, sister guilty of congenital heart disease.
I live in the language Cheng room window just cuttings planted near a large white rose, several flower flowers hung listlessly. Connaught language while struggling buckets, while said to me:. "White Rose inserted difficult to live, to be able to sell on the National Day high prices, a few years will be able to save enough money for surgery of the"
She faint smile, a very clean face, white jade. Jen eye because chronic malnutrition, showing a blue. Her breath badly:. "Huashan Hospital, the doctor said that my heart more than others, opened a window, if not surgery as soon as possible, and I live only 25 years old" language Connaught look calm, as if talking with their milli unaffiliated outsiders."
I want to kind of a lot of white roses, but also take a lot of living to do plastic flowers, promising my shop, plus the wages of parents, 100000, should soon had enough." Watching this was the fate of suppressed breathe a little life, and her age, with very inconsistent interpretation of the transcendent to me her desire for health. Heart is language Connaught gasps tear to stinging.
Language Connaught heart by God to open a window, and my heart because year after year the college entrance examination, already forced into a dark alley, no longer see a ray of light. Night, I lit a cigarette, an airflow fleeing burning throat, spasm, cough until tears come. Smoke-filled, bright fire machine, the discovered language Connaught chuckle eye, that eye abnormalities shining benevolence, I slowly fall asleep in the illusion.
Perhaps these years my soul tired of my zombie-like body, chose to flee, had to hear my call, or maybe I did not have time to call in the sink. I pulled out a cigarette, looking at the empty cigarette case, a small shop in Connaught language, I still buy two box of cigarettes a day. Being looked down to make plastic flowers language Connaught, looking at poverty caused by family, heart palpitations while tight, life and life to feel bad, I hurried to the fireworks go off.
"Language promise, do not do it! Do not fill in the atrium on the window? Efforts we go, it does not make up the line?"
"Get a wallet, my portfolio back to see his brother!"
Square packed evening, I propped my portfolio, language Connaught sit opposite me, this sketch is my best, just grab facial features, 2.3 minutes, is a lifelike. Soon, watch the crowd put us surrounded. As night fell, the words whispered promise and surprise: "My brother was amazing 180 yuan this month 5400, the year of the surgery is enough!!."
I am carrying her bike riding too fast, "The village has a girl named Xiao Fang, good looking and kind, a pair of beautiful eyes, coarse and long braids ....." has lost count of how long they have not sung, the entrance for six consecutive years, and cultural studies have not reached over the line, I do not even remember his own in the end Why go to participate in college entrance examination. Just know that tonight, I’m happy, the first time ever, I did cigarette, the smoke and fire machine locked drawer, along with my decadent removed.
Snow tiny shop language, the customer is no access, but that temporary road side wall opened large windows open after school hours, selling tobacco and sundry goods. From language Connaught shop fixed, and again heard the voice of my mother extremely desperate, not a surprise, was not any of this cultural lesson lines, 120 minutes of English papers, do not have to break the spell of 40 points. In fact, the night of sleep, has long experience from the language for their promise to open the side window, I already know where their light. I’m sorry, Mom! Seventh year of repeat classes, goodbye!
"33 points, but also too little, right?" Language Connaught whispered asked.
"Language Connaught, so good, from the first day you began to teach me English, I put up a stall in the evening to you earn for tuition. Hello I beg bad? 33 points that out too ashamed!"
Language Connaught due diligence, cut into squares with a cigarette wrapping paper card, write every day I must master words. Just very strange, to say these words are also familiar with the familiar, unfamiliar also strange to say, every day is the day staring at Connaught language is pretty interesting. Locked drawer cigarettes more; drawer back off cards more and more. Had gone to the first day of school, a sophomore speech promise, but worried that she would like before, because of the disease, but dropped out in a semi-state.
The first day of September, I went back to their city, contracted a Guizu department store, the main painting supplies. Cheng also, and language arts test together to do a tutorial, with our solid foundation and so many years of experience in arts test, cram team grow day by day. Connaught language English is still a week to send me a card, but I had and language Cheng settle, leave all the words of this year’s revenue Connaught surgery, I’ll loan it to them.
In a busy day in one day in the past, indeed never had joy. Entrance for nearly another year, I reported the name of the seventh, but were less disturbed than in the past, were more calm. I have received the "Tianjin Arts and Crafts," a copy of a notice of a professional, looking greeting cards, solemnly wrote: forge ahead, how the storm destroy your courage and tenacity! Looked at his firm handwriting, my 25-year-old big man actually cry for language promise, but also for themselves.
I opened the curtains, moonlight, on the ground a mottled, light and spacious as my heart tonight. I gazed at this bend Quarter, thank Novo language let me know when a heart is really open window, a real change in their attitude, will it be possible to change the environment around us. Bright light and spacious open when we face life’s cruelty and helplessness, whether it is the seventh year of his brother’s college entrance examination, or your surgery will no longer be terrible!